lazy week

living alone is quiet exciting. ever since i could remember, i always dreamed of having my own place, my own rules, my own time. now, i have them all.... i do what i want to do whenever i want to. at first, it's pretty gratifying. but right now, im starting to feel kind of lonely.....

i miss my house.

i miss my parents. im here in manila and they are in negros occidental.

i miss my dog.

i miss my room.

i have a cool job, it's nice paying, not time demanding (only six hours a day!). my boyfriend is the best in the whole world. im slowly earning my masters degree in the best school in the Philippines.....

now. what is missing?????

last night i was reading paulo coelho's veronika decides to die. i sat upright when i read the girl's outlook in life. we have the same views. and in the story, the girl tried to commit suicide because she felt that nothing has changed..... she neither feels happy or unhappy about her life. and that's exactly what im feeling right now.

so. here i am. just staring into nothingness.