Bago City Here I Come!!!!!

I want to pull the hands of time! I am so excited I can't think straight. =)

I can't wait to hug Tandy and play with him.

Want to sleep in my bedroom!!!! God, how I miss having my own room and sleeping in a fucking BED. BED! BED! BED! in my apartment, i just have a flimsy mattress spread on the floor. And TONIGHT, Im going to sleep on a BED. Rejoice!!!!

going back to my hometown, what doest it mean to me?

i got a little bit sentimental just a few minutes ago. maybe because i heard Heart's Alone. i felt so nostalgic... i guess it's because that song has been prominent during my growing up years. I remember my lola odet and her puto. i remember my lolo pedro and his batad. i remember my mama tucking me to sleep. I remember that little video shop that i used to go to with my pops. I remember my Hilangban days.... those fights and play session with my cousins... i remember my cousin maritess... how she treated me like a baby, always asking what i want to do. i remember Adan, and how i can bully him and he wouldn't give a damn about it. He would still follow me around and do whatever it is that i tell him to do. I remember Boding and how we used to bike together and end up getting scarred at the legs. I remember those silly crushes. I remember little julie ann and the way i made her cry. I remember the "inasalan" near our house and how i would make tambay to that place until dark. I remember the sugarcane i used to chomp on... I remember Tepol, and how i used to yes, bully him. I remember the pan de sal and the coke i used to sneak out of our house and share with my playmates.

It's funny how a simple song can bring a waterfall of memeories.

I will be in Bago City tomorrow. I live in San Gabriel now, but even so, I will still go to Hilangban and visit my relatives. and then i'll see older faces and older houses. but definitely, i'll still feel excited and playful and sentimental. I will visit my grandparent's grave and offer flowers. I will go to Buenos Aires again and have a swim or a picnic with M. I will go to Tepol's house and take him to the nearest grocery store and buy all the candies he would point. I will talk to Boding. I will take Adan to Panaad with me. and then we will reminisce about the stupid things we did. oh there are so much things to do!!!

bad dream, Labor Day

a couple of nights ago, I had a really bad dream. it's the kind of dream that when you wake up, you have this urge to go to a temple and give a prayer of thanks that it was just a dream. I dreamed of my cousin, budz. The whole family knows that she's been through a lot. anyways, in my dream, she took away her life. and as i watched her lifeless body, i found a bunch of letters beside her. the letters were addressed to me, our aunt and uncles, her sibs and friends etc. i guess it was a long dream coz when i woke up, i was very, very tired. the morning after, i told her about it. i just can't keep that to myself!

yesterday was Labor's Day which means that it's a holiday. since im poor as a rat, i just stayed at home and watched dozens of dvd. M is in Baguio still. Some of the movies I watched were Forces of Nature, While You Were Sleeping, Two Weeks Notice, Notting Hill, Mean Girls and Miss Congeniality 2. Im a Bullock fan, so eventhough I wasn't able to go to the mall or buy some books, i was very happy with my moviethon. Plus, Hugh Grant is okay too. I think he's got the best smile ever.

Tomorrow, I'll be home once again. YEAH! I can't keep still. I am sooo excited!!!

LOST

My name is Pauline and I am a LOST addict.

Bago City, weekend, old friends, TYN JABSON

This thursday, I'll be going to Bago City for a four day holiday, YEY! M is coming with me and he will be staying at our house. I am sooo excited!!! I miss my parents, fatso and Tandy! i'll be seeing them again, and that makes me feel so hyper. My friend, Hennie, has already texted me our itineraries. She'll have a day off from her kids. Just about time she have some fun again!

M and I watched 8 Below. It was a cute movie. I wanted to watch Ice Age 2 again, but M wouldn't hear of it. and besides he's the one who paid for the movies, so I HAVE NO FREAKING CHOICE. hehehehe. the morning after, M headed to Baguio for some "soul searching". my ass. hehehehehe. he said he'd like to have time for himself. okie. i'll have freaking time to myself next month too!!! I'll go to Sagada with my former classmate. or better yet, I'll tell no one where i'm going. hah!

yesterday, i met up with an old friend- shayie. it was good seeing her again. the last i saw her was the christmas of 2002. she's currently based here in manila, but next month she'll transfer to Cebu. I guess being a medical representative turns a person into a jetsetter. Gem was able to meet us too. she brought Pipoy along. I am so happy seeing Pipoy!!!! he's now two years old, but he's the most well behaved two year old i've ever been with. Too bad we were not able to be together for a long time.

TYN, YOU HAVE TO UPDATE YOUR BLOG, IT'S FREAKING OLD! I WANT TO WATCH ICE AGE 2 WITH NANO, BUT YOU ARE NOT TEXTING ME. I WANT TO GO TO THE POLICE STATION AND REPORT YOU MISSING, YOU BI-ATCH. JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVE A NEW BOYFRIEND DOESN'T MEAN YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO IGNORE ME. anyways, what's up with nog? hope he's doing well.

oh i love talking about my freaking self

1. Initials:
-APLC

2. Name someone with the same birthday as you:
-marion sario and her mom

3.Last thing that you ate?
-fried chicken and rice

4. For or against same sex marriage?
- For.

5. Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday
- of course! especially if spongebob is on

6. Do you believe in God?
- without a doubt: YES.

7. How many cities have you been to?
- more than 20

8. Something non-physical you like about yourself:
- organizational skills

9. What is your mom's name?
- Ching

10. If you could go anywhere in the world, where
would you go?
- Tokyo, Madrid, Cairo, Tel Aviv, Tikrit, Bangkok, Brazilia, China

11. Favorite type of food?
- any chicken dishes

12. Favorite holiday?
- Christmas because of the long breaks!

13. Do you download music?
- sometimes

14. Where would you want to go on a first date?
- museum

16. Has anyone ever sang or played for you?
- yes.

17. Have you ever cried for no reason?
- yes.

18. Do you like President Arroyo?
- Sort of

19. Have you ever bungee jumped?
- never in a million years. scared of heights

20. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit
on you?
- well...

21. How is the weather right now?
- insanely hot

22. Current track you're listening to?
- james blunt's back to bedlam

23. What is your current favorite song?
- you're beautiful (Blunt) and you were there (baby face)

24. What was the last movie you watched?
- tristan and isolde

25. Do you wear contacts?
- nope

26. Where was the last place you went besides
your house?
- gateway mall

27. What are you afraid of the most?
- losing someone

28. Any pets?
- daschund. his name is TANDY

29. Have you ever loved someone?
- yes

30. What really turns you on?
- a guy who is resourceful, independent, strong willed and religious. And also, a decade or more older than me

31. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
- strawberries and cream frap

32. Have you ever fired a gun?
- nope

33. Are you missing someone?
- yes. a friend who passed away

34. Do you have an iPod?
- can't afford it

35. Has anyone ever said you looked like a
celebrity?
- no

36. What's the name of your crush?
- Sayid (that LOST guy)

37. Are you comfortable with your height?
- i guess

38. Have you ever been caught doing something
you weren't supposed to be doing?
- Im good at things like that, hehehehe.
39. Favorite flower?
- none

40. Butter, plain, kettle, or salted popcorn?
- all of the above. popcorn is my life.

41. What books are you reading right now?
- A History of Love by Nicole Krauss and Anansi Boys by Neil Gaiman

42. Has anyone you were really close to passed
away?
- yes.

3. Do you watch MTV?
- can't live without it

44. What's something that really annoys you?
- those women who acts ultra super ladylike; political situation in Pinas; those Filipinos abroad who speaks badly above my beloved Inang Bayan.

45. What are some things you really like?
- BOOKS, BOOKS, BOOKS; coming home (in Bago City); weekends; cooking

46. Do you like Michael Jackson?
-I used to

47. Can you dance?
- no

48. Favorite football team?
- none

49. Favorite breakfast food?
- steaminng white rice, luncheon meat and fried egg

50. What's the latest you have ever stayed
awake?
- 6 am. insomnia.

what i've been thinking lately

i noticed that the past couple of weeks, Melrose is always in my mind. I don't know why. Even in my dreams, I would see her face and "hear" her voice. The dreams were all pleasant though. And all the things I remember about her are all happy ones. I remember all the jokes, all the anecdotes. I am confident that wherever she is now, she is at peace and happy. I am glad that I'm currently wallowing in her memory. It's just that, sometimes, I feel this pinch in my heart... I have told a million times how i still could not fathom her death, and until now, im still in disbelief and sorrow. BUT, i have accepted the fact that she could never be with me physically anymore. It's really so hard to lose one of your closest friends. a part of me refuses to close. soemtimes, i would feel this hollow space in my gut. there are times that i would ask, is melrose really DEAD? Sometimes, I would tell melrose, when we meet again, you will still be 23 years old and i'm probably all wrinkly. I know she will smile at this. Im happy for the life she lived. She truly touched mine.

hair cut

for five years, i always have long hair--- a couple or more inches and it will reach the end of my spine. the cut would always be layered, or with some bangs etc. I GOT TIRED OF IT LAST SUNDAY. yep, i had my hair cut! now it's a little above my shoulders. im loving it. i felt so FREE when the stylist was done with the cutting. I LOOKED LIKE A BIG CHILD, HAHAHAHAHAHA!

im satisfied with this style... so easy to manage, so simple. and i looked DIFFERENT!!!

holy week, smoking, james blunt, laundry

Maundy Thursday- i spent the first half at the office. the rest, with M. we went to the mass for maundy thursday, i don't know what it's called... there was this ceromony where the priest washed the feet of 12 men, supposedly the 12 disciples. i nearly went out of my mind because the mass was so looooooooong. i kept fidgeting on my seat and looking at my sides, reading bag labels and etc. M would sometimes tap me on the shoulder to keep me still. On Black Saturday, me and M attended the Easter Vigil Mass and as usual, i nearly went out of my mmind. there were 8 freaking readings! i almost cried out of boredom. no offense, i attend mass. not regularly, but i try to. my attention span for this things is usually up to 30 minutes only. M was very excited about the vigil because there was a renewal of baptism. whatevs. he was so happy that day. Easter sunday- i had breakfast at mcdonalds with M. after that, i went home and cleaned the house. man, the kitchen and the living area is spanking clean you would not believe it is pau's apartment. hahahaha. i threw a lot of junk, and i can almost feel the whole apartment heaving with relief. good thing, julie woke up early and was able to help with the chores.

i hate people who smoke in public--- like in the sidewalks, PUV, around the corner. JUST WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE BITCHES AND BASTARDS??? i don't want to inhale that smoke that came off your stinking mouth!!!! i am a smoker, all right. but i do it in my own place and SMOKING LOUNGES. I understand that people who don't smoke would like to die with their lungs pink and shiny. I want to kill my own self you know!!! unlike you who don't give a damn, but you should because YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO POLLUTE THE AIR THAT THEY BREATHE!!!! go and pollute your own air!!!!

anyways.

i love love love james blunt. especially his "you're beautiful" song. i watched him on oprah and he said that the song is about his ex- gf, how he met her at the subway and their eyes met, and he knew at that instant that though everything is over between them, they were able to go to a different world. sigh. let me share a part of that song:

yes she caught my eye
as i walked on by
she can see from my face that I was fucking high
and i don't think that i'll see her again
but we shared a moment that will last til the end

it's just so freaking sweet.


i did my 2 weeks worth of laundry yesterday. i was not able to finish it coz my back suddenly went crazy. i am too young to have backaches, goddammit!!! and did i mention that i don't have a washing machine so i have to do my laundry by hands??? i am not fit for physical labor, but i have no choice. anyways, i was not able to finish it. ugh. now, what will i wear???? garbage bags?

oh my god i ate pork last night

i've been avoiding pork and beef since november 2005. until last night. i just missed my mother's pork in kadyos and batuan..... so when i saw that stuff being sold at the gateway foodcourt, i bought it without any hesitation. ugh! i feel so guilty. now that stuff will stay inside my gut for two freaking weeks!

been reading a lot of PETA stuff, and as as much as i want to go totally vegetarian, i just can't give up eggs, butter, milk and chicken! i can't live without fried chicken, chicken curry, chicken adobo etc!!!!! i just love chicken. i tried weaning myself from it, but it's so DAMN HARD! and eggs! i live on omelets!!!

but i do feel for those animals who get killed so they can land on dinner tables.

last night will be the last time that i will eat pork.

pat on my back for not touching any beef....

happy easter!

ICE AGE 2 ADDICTION

For the nth time last night, i watched ice age 2. Last night was more fun because i watched it with three of my office buddies--- shan, may and vanek. We were laughing like crazy! We loved the part where SID was hailed as the Fire King and everything he does was imitated by the mini sloths... i might buy a dvd copy of this crazy movie. i so, so love it! my favorite is Sid, he's awesome!

the four of us had dinner at gateway foodcourt. shan had something from taco bell, may and vanek went japanese, and i had pork in batuan broth... i bought this from flavors of negros. I miss my mother's cooking!!!! anyways, the dish i bought was sooooo inferior. im sorry, but it is. it was so oily and the vegetables were overcooked! anyways, i only finished half of it.

i'm glad i spent the night with them. they are great, i tell you. we agree that coming to work doesn't feel like it because the four of us are always having fun joking and teasing each other. i hope none of us will resign.

it will be good friday tomorrow. there will be no offices for us until monday. LIFE IS SO GOOD!

so this is tuesday

okay.

my weekend was great. spent it with M, we baked cookies... and we watched basic instinct 2, and we slept all throughout the movie. well, the movie was....nice.

absent from work two days in a row...was sick, little fever, lots of backaches, and a sprinkle of headache.

missed patrick so much! we talked a couple of times over the phone, but it's never enough. he sent me these cute hoop earrings made of capiz shells and a necklace. im so proud of his craft! he's soo good at it, and he's only 12. imagine that...

anyways.... i'm thinking about going back to graduate school. but i ain't taking HISTORY anymore! hah! enough of the past! i was thinking of taking up commerce related thingy... i'm still searching, and i'm not yet sure if i will indeed go back to school. whatevs....

i've been thinking a LOT about my pops lately. im so worried about his health... he seems to be taking his health for granted. he is still drinking BEER. and i hate knowing it. he's a freaking diabetic and he should know better. i want to see him grow old, you know.

i spoke with ADAN last night. time really flies so fast, he's in 3rd year college now. and i saw lance's latest photo, and his adam's apple is beginning to show. eeek!

things at random

ugh. i started writing and then i hit the delete button accidentally.

my sis just sent me a text message, asking me how things are... bah. she's only left yesterday, DUH. just kidding. i hope she liked my gift to her. hehehehehehe. cads missed her terribly, that i am sure of... they were inseperable here... i even caught them in a tight embrace while they were sleeping. eeeewwww. hahahahaha! sorry cynths and cads, i just have to write this. =)

im on break. eating a mongolian lunch... too spicy for me!

anyways, M's sis is sick. I feel for him. i know he loves his sister so much. I pray for her sis, and for him as well. God bless them.

the heat is so cruel. everythime i go out of the office at 3 pm, i feel like im in a broiler. really!

just thinking about it makes me sick.

IM BACK

it's been ages... i miss writing here!

1st. congratulations to my baby brother FATSO. He will be graduating next week. He will be a high school student next school year! sob! sob! where is that baby i used to carry around and show off to my friends? I can't freaking believe he's all grown up. His voice is starting to grow DEEP. my GOD! Patrick is becoming a man! What i'm afraid most is when the time comes that he will introduce me to his GIRLFRIEND. aaargh.

2nd. my sister has transferred to CEBU. so now, my housemates are cads, jules, and my cousin buddie. Budz is in Negros now, to attend Lance's graduation. His two bros and sis are living with my parents now.

3rd. Jolabs has been texting me like crazy. She wants to go here in Freaking Manila. what i wouldn't give to bring my old life in BAGO CITY back. I miss my old life!

4th. Outing with M. it's supposed to be on the 28th of this month... oh well. im... excited. eally, i am.

5th. work has been GREAT. no pressure, lots of fun. =)

6th. this is it for now. got to do something. =)